Its such a lonely day today. Recovering from my sickness, lying down on my bed looking towards the window wondering what I should do. Sitting at the edge of my windown staring downwards at the swimming pool, looking at the people so lifely having fun chatting and laughing. Feel like having those life again which I can be carefree about.
Woke up in the morning, looking at my phone, wondering when will it ring and say how are ya today. "haha" indeed this sounds like a loner and yes indeed I have became a loner here. I have no more energy, I'm tired, worned out.
Feel like giving a text to someone yet I felt avoided. Am I being avoided? Am I?
I was told once by the one I was sure I could Love saying, "I like you but I will not be with you, I would try others and choose you last".( roughly like that )
Was so dissapointed at the point of my life. Never expected that to come.
Either ways, I do what I can do. With these little times, I guess people will climb over me and share a future with someone. Prepared for the worse. I cant affort to fall for the same mistake I took 6 months ago which I fell flat on the ground and started at zero again.
Ever since then good times never goes my way. One after another and another and another.
All problems comes from my emotions. All problems attacks my feelings. Medicine could not safe me from what hurts inside.
Love, Family, Friends
The 3 closes things to me
Love - lost 1
(Losing another I guess)
Family - lost 1
Friends - Lost count
Flowers bloom, Flowers die.
Life goes along, Life soon will end.
What is there you want, When there is nothing you need.
Expect nothing, and everything is a bonus.
Everyday is a Bonus.
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DiXz
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